Pfff. We did it again friends! Its back to reality, back to normal life and routines. Our braincells are dead, nothing works, immune systems are down- but hey- this is the normal result of 4 days straight of work, bbb, fashion hipsters, friends, good music, party & bullshit!

We loved every second of it, appreciate the good times & laughs- it was all worth it! From private hotel parties, to Nike x Pigalle @ Tausend, The Clash @ Watergate from our DRMtm friends, to our private BBB closing with Schowi on the decks- killer!

ThanX to all of you for coming, bringing fresh winds into Berlin, opening new gossips, leaving traces, for the locals of handling all those strangers, for culture clashes and party masses… lets do this again soon!

Now its time for a lil more of BBB for 2 weeks, then we’re officially on holidays, preparing our eVe without adam launch! (more info’s soon!)

Here some impressions from around*

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Ladies & Gentleman, welcome to another amazing & outstanding BBB coming up!

We’re rocking the Sin Saloon tonight for the Opening and to start some good fun and business tomorrow. We’re drop dead tired and exhausted but adrenaline of this little baby monster is starting to kick in!

BBBoosegumps, every time over and over again!

Lets do this!

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We are camping out here since today.  Lets do this!

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Testing your own boundaries. Till where will you go, what is your own limit. An emotional timeline or state, which you try and control. Will I be able to get over it by then? Be able to understand the issues and forgotten principles? Till where do i go, when do i stop and accept reality and what is actually happening around me.

Being rational and conscious of every step you take, being able to back those decisions up. Standing up for them, and taking the ride without fear to fail.

You analyze your own situation without judging yourself, or maybe are taken apart from others- trying to be objective and go into those little hidden truths, to find the reason of this roller coaster. You start admitting facts, that were so obvious to others.

Waking up, you realize what it was all about: why something lead to something else, and how come you ever had to come to that point. How it went wrong, doesn’t really matter. It was there and you will take it with you in a positive way. Process of learning and growing into the perfect person that you are going to be (for yourself) one day. You understand, take it in, breathe and learn how to work it out for the future.

Awareness.
Welcome to my Crab World partII.

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1 hour later: Watching “The Ugly Truth” after, laughing at yourself for unneeded dramas around that you try to explain!

A great therapist for rollercoaster patients!

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And of course it was full of that!

Spent the Halloween weekend in my good old hometown Barci… an overwhelming mixture of extreme hapiness and sadness at the same time… you dont notice how much you miss a place that feels so familiar and like home to you, till you are actually back on track, doing the same things you used to do back then, meeting your best friends, eatin torilla + pan con tomate in the sun, and all those small details one forgets when gone….

Berlin is really good to me, im always happy to come back to my third home… But damn! Walking around in tshirt, shorts and sandals in the southern city, is just pain when you are back to rainy days and grey skies…

Barcelona, mi amor, Im always Yours.

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Winter, what are you bringing to our lives?
Cold nights in which you long closeness… Where feet seem ice-blocks in bed when alone. When days seem to press you into the ground, not letting you breath. Where distractions fall away and you remind yourself of the reason of your feelings.

Lyrics guide your way and you soak in every word, trying to find a meaning for your confusions and lost words. Every song a memory, storytelling your life.

Aloneness you are that somebody that nobody wants to deal with, although we should all learn to live with you. If you look at it from an objective side, maybe you are not that bad. You give us the power of being with oneself. Something maybe just as great and magical than when being with somebody. Still, its damm hard to handle you. To come home, silence, a cold house, an empty fridge, solitude. There is that other half missing. The joy of sharing and receiving and giving is not there. Let it be friendship, let it be love.

Winter you bring deep thoughts. Conclusions for confusions or confusions for the wrong conclusions. Of course you bring melancholy, and the thought of the past. Not being able to let go of the past, an issue that will follow us forever. You can see it in kids, you can see it in our grandparents. Everybody holding on to it, because of fear to the future.
Winter you bring missing.

Desire and Need. You are so close to eachother and so difficult to keep apart. Desiring someone or being desired, might be the warmest feeling you can get in your belly. A feeling that converts itself to need if you lost yourself. Why do we need something, someone, anything to be happy? Why are we so unhappy with ourselfves or the way life goes, that we always desire for something? The ongoing question of a young woman in todays society.
Dont we want independance and freedom for our independant actions? Dont we wanna stop to need anything?

And who knows, maybe all this “Carrie Bradshaw- Sex in the City” bullshit here, was something better to hold up in diaries or private life. Maybe it is all stuff that doesnt belong here, but in the end, nobody can really deal with reality. We all run away to our jobs and our talents, the hypes of different genres, to hide from the shit that is going on… and is happening to so many of us.

Nobody really talks about their feelings, maybe its none of others business. Women in my world are real. We dont care to be frank and to stand up to what we believe or feel. We are transparent and not scared of emotions. We make mistakes and we try to learn from then. We are naive and yet strong. We still walk with high chests and are proud of our achievements. But still, we suffer just like anyone else.

Just take it in, think about it a little, and move on.

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And this might sound cheesy but we all know that in the end… Its all about love.

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Heute !!! CO BERLIN

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