Yes Yes, exiting times again in the Münzstr. in Mitte… Probably one of the most “in action” streets in the area!

For the past 2 days we have been watching a beautifully formed snow-lip on the roofs of our neighbours, imagining how much it would hurt when falling ontop of you!

Today, the grand finale, 2 superheroes took action and removed it with their superpower forces! To the rescue!

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Mandy & Sandy sind ausm Urlaub zurück, haben den Apres-Ski so halb überlebt, und fangen mal wieder an sich über die wichtigen sachen im Leben zu unterhalten… Frohes Neues Jahr!

[17:05:49] Sandy says: er schreibt: i hurry to see you, i need your kiss in real

[17:05:54] Sandy says: der und sein englisch, so funny!

[17:06:29] Mandy says: hahahahhahaha geil!

[17:06:37] Mandy says: ich lach mich tot!

[17:06:58] Sandy says: heheheh ich auch

[17:07:34] Mandy says: so süß aba auch ne

[17:07:40] Mandy says: ich bin sehr gespannt

[17:08:21] Sandy says: voll süß… ich bin auch suuuper gespannt! ich frag mich ob in the end i like him

[17:09:13] Mandy says: i hope so too

[17:09:30] Mandy says: nicht das er kompletto versagt wenn er hier ist

[17:09:36] Mandy says: wie mister xxxx

[17:09:41] Sandy says: jaaaaa ich hoffe nicht

[17:09:49] Sandy says: ich glaub aber der hat nen kleinen

[17:09:54] Sandy says: so nen duennen weeste

[17:09:57] Mandy says: wie der is doch 2m lang

[17:10:09] Mandy says: dünn ok aba klein?

[17:10:33] Sandy says: ja vielleicht dünn und lang

[17:10:35] Sandy says: auch schlimm!

[17:10:42] Mandy says: nein is ok

[17:10:49] Sandy says: i hate it!

[17:10:52] Mandy says: hahahahhahahahah

[17:10:59] Sandy says: hahahah

[17:11:03] Mandy says: ach ich liebe schöne balls

[17:15:15] Sandy says: hahahahah

[17:15:20] Sandy says: hab das garnicht gelesen!

[17:15:21] Sandy says: hhahahahhaha

[17:15:26] Sandy says: i give a shit on balls!

[17:15:32] Sandy says: sind mir sooo egal

[17:16:37] Mandy says: hahahahha ich liebe sie, besonders wenn sie geil gegen den arsch klatschen

[17:16:42] Mandy says: u weich sind

[17:16:47] Sandy says: hahahahah

[17:16:48] Mandy says: ohne haare

[17:16:57] Mandy says: und möglichst prall!

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Testing your own boundaries. Till where will you go, what is your own limit. An emotional timeline or state, which you try and control. Will I be able to get over it by then? Be able to understand the issues and forgotten principles? Till where do i go, when do i stop and accept reality and what is actually happening around me.

Being rational and conscious of every step you take, being able to back those decisions up. Standing up for them, and taking the ride without fear to fail.

You analyze your own situation without judging yourself, or maybe are taken apart from others- trying to be objective and go into those little hidden truths, to find the reason of this roller coaster. You start admitting facts, that were so obvious to others.

Waking up, you realize what it was all about: why something lead to something else, and how come you ever had to come to that point. How it went wrong, doesn’t really matter. It was there and you will take it with you in a positive way. Process of learning and growing into the perfect person that you are going to be (for yourself) one day. You understand, take it in, breathe and learn how to work it out for the future.

Awareness.
Welcome to my Crab World partII.

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1 hour later: Watching “The Ugly Truth” after, laughing at yourself for unneeded dramas around that you try to explain!

A great therapist for rollercoaster patients!

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AAAAAAAAAlllllltttterrr diesen Ausraster habe ich eben auf nem Blog entdeckt!

Eigentlich ist es wohl echt nicht mehr lustig, denn er flippt so aus, weil seine Mutter den Account zu seinem World of Warcraft Spiel gelöscht hat!

was soll Frau noch dazu sagen…

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Strange days in this grey world. Days full of deep thoughts and examinations of what is happening around you. You are not distracted, you are confronted by realities. You are in a constant movement of growth, which is probably the most positive but difficult thing ever.

To understand and tolerate your surrounding, the people in it. To accept them the way they are, the way they feel, think or act towards situations. To accept their opinions in a humble way, think objective and try to embrace the best out of every other persons thoughts, maybe by changing things a little from then on. That is part of the essence of communication and the esence of love and friendship.

Through this analyzation you start seeing different signs and sides of your surrounding, getting to know details and levels that you were not aware of. Many times, ending up disappointed- many others maybe even positively surprised. Its all about wavelengths, degrees of emotional and spiritual connections and sharing the same principles and bases.

You pick out what is good for you, you leave behind what you cannot deal with. In the end, our ego, pride and love for ourselves is just as important as the acceptance of different levels of consciousness of other people.

You find yourself in situations, where you need to set things clear, in need of explaining to do. Stumbling against concrete walls that dont understand or accept your point of view, pushing against it with rejection. You try to get things across, of course your way, and little seems to stick or to be believed.
Your honesty is on probation.
Trust is something you earn, and something you dont have in any random person, something that develops in time. But still: how can you call someone a friend or a loved one when there is no trust? how can you defend someone as such, if u don’t believe it yourself? how come people, seem to be influenced by others peoples accusations, letting you stand in the rain by yourself?

All this trust, is part of the job when letting someone in your life. All the rest is superficial and on a thin line to nothingness.

Friendship or Love is not only a momentary state. Of course living in the moment is one of the biggest talents you can have, but still to be honored with those two beauties of life (friendship/love), are work too. There is energy, thought and compassion that needs to be put into it.

Of course there are arguments and misunderstanding that are needed sometimes, to learn out of it and to try to make it better for the next time. Of course, just as happiness and empathy, there can be (and healthily should be) disagreements and dissapointment- so one you can proove it different and feel the “click” that we all need.

All this sounds pretty much “Peace&Love-Hippy-Bullshit”, i know (which is not something to put down actually). But hey, its part of an aware life!

Different principles, different aspects. Differences between beings, that try to find a way to be a match in any sort of emotional relationship. We get back to tolerance and similarities that make you fit and be at ease.

Maybe, we should stop pointing fingers, having expectations, be on confrontation, looking for things that make life more difficult and be more open to honesty, humbleness and acceptance. Maybe we should realize, that the only person we can change if we want to, is ourselves. Maybe we should be straight and direct and don’t live on illusions about ourselves or other people. Maybe we can just take out the nasty parts and with little effort turn them in something that makes us happy.

Maybes and thoughts spinning around on how it should be. How it can be.
Awareness and over-sensible statuses of what is going on around you.

Welcome to my Cancer World.

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Berlin. November. 18:40. It’s raining and skies are grey.

I’m heading up to the area of town, which when you mention it to Kreuzberg residents they roll their eyes, and say “baby world! people are so fake and predictable there”: Mitte- Prenzlauer Berg.

I stand in front of a closed door; I am the first one, wishing that it will stay that way. More and more people gather, all waiting for the same purpose. They hide from the drops under the balconies, looking at each other numb and frozen. Their eyes are mean, and they all think the same: “I want it”.

The clock ticks and the person we are waiting for is late. Tension and uncomfort is in the air, just making sure you are not too friendly to your momentarily acquaintances.

Mr. “Iamthebestflatsalesman” arrives 10 min. late, in a hurry, probably like always. The by then 25 people, storm behind him through the door, like in a cue to a boy band concert.

We follow him up the stairs to the promised palace and are back in the civilized work, waiting in turns to go in and see the jewel. I walk in, and as probably so many upcoming times, am completely disappointed. The so called mansion is a bunker; cheap, without charm and the only purpose is to function. While the other guests fill out papers, and take the first best opportunity they get, I head back out, relieved to know that this doesn’t have to be my last option.

So yes, this is the feeling you get when looking for a flat. Stress, pressure and most of all, desires to be fulfilled. It will just be a question of time, till all of those 25 peeps get what they want, including me, and then there will be the next 25 to rush around a rainy city in look of their crab shell.

I like my flat… its cosy, its me.

Next question would be: why the hell, are you leaving alternative, real and authentic Kreuzberg, to be part that family-non-berliner-residential-world? In the end, I’m not from Berlin, and although I might be part of it, I don’t like to be part of those prejudices. I’m on complete neutral ground. My life doesn’t play in the place where I currently live, which of course often can be a positive thing. In my case, it’s the thought of full metro trains, expensive taxi’s, work being far and good friends not coming over for breakfast on a hangover-ed Sunday. So, I’m sure of being able to create my non fake world, in a supposedly fake surrounding.

And now a shout out to you my friends: Hit me up, if you know of something!!!

And then:

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N S T R U C T I O N S   F O R   L I F E

1. Take into account that great love and great achievements involve great risk.

2. When you lose, don’t lose the lesson.

3. Follow the three Rs:

Respect for self
Respect for others and
Responsibility for all your actions.

4. Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck.

5. Learn the rules so you know how to break them properly.

6. Don’t let a little dispute injure a great friendship.

7. When you realise you’ve made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.

8. Spend some time alone every day.

9. Open your arms to change, but don’t let go of your values.

10. Remember that silence is sometimes the best answer.

11. Live a good, honourable life. Then when you get older and think back, you’ll be able to enjoy it a second time.

12. A loving atmosphere in your home is the foundation for your life.

13. In disagreements with loved ones, deal only with the current situation. Don’t bring up the past.

14. Share your knowledge. It’s a way to achieve immortality.

15. Be gentle with the earth.

16. Once a year, go someplace you’ve never been before.

17. Remember that the best relationship is one in which your love for each other exceeds your need for each other.

18. Judge your success by what you had to give up in order to get it.

19. Approach love and cooking with reckless abandon.

(Dalai Lama)

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